no sleep in this house

Originally uploaded by rachaelgregg
i have not had a good nights sleep in over a week. My studies have been hit hard my life is kind of upside down. Im not sure what's going on. I sit awake at night thinking, praying, wanting to do something about it. I stare at my ceiling fan, whirling away. I listen to lyrics, over analyzing the meaning behind them. I stay awake reading, No Country For Old Men, Manet. I find myself wandering the apartment, sitting in different spots, trying to tire myself out. Yet it seems the only time I'm tired is when its time to go to class, to learn, to grow, to be apart of the world.

Even with sunlight so beautiful, all i wanted was to shut my eyes.