I am a fatty.

There I said it out loud. Kind of. I've had an inner fat(or more so clinically obese) kid inside me my whole life. I always ate my cookies/dessert first. I rarely exercise. When I say rarely I mean the last time I remember purposely running for more than 10 feet was when I was mad at B for straight up ignoring me so I ran on his parents treadmill barefoot until he noticed that i wasnt there.... frick... last summer? Yes these grudges are still being held. It's helping me. Dont judge.

Back to my fatself. I am not "fat" in the way that its super unhealthy. Not to say my body is healthy at all... I had 2 candy bars after I ate lunch yesterday. I carry my weight well, people always tell me I am crazy to think I'm fat. But these people did not see my boobs, stomach, and thighs jiggle while I was sitting in a massage chair getting a pedicure. I fit into women's size 6 jeans. BUT I'm only 5'4" and I have a small frame... I should be in women's size 4 jeans.

Side Note: Girls juniors sizes are all sorts of messed up to try to make you feel fat. I'd be like a size 9-11 in a juniors skinny jean. Eww. I am going off my lovely straight legged Gap women's jean size.

I had fried food for lunch, after I had a frap for breakfast. I eat junk food all the time. I also decided to cut out sugary cereals. So I bought raisin bran instead of Lucky Charms. Did you know Raisin Bran is actually worse for you? Less vitamins and more calories. wtf. WTF.

So this all being said, I bought an exercise ball(I am going to try to not pop this one) and I worked out last night. I worked up a sweat even. I dont feel it today though, which means I didnt work out hard enough. Right? Thought so. Tomorrow my cousin and I are going for a run, which means I better buy some running shoes tonight. Any excuse to buy shoes is a good excuse. Plus cute running shoes will totally help me want to run.... if i lived in an alternate universe. I live on Earth, this means cute running shoes wont help me want to run at all. But when I'm having an asthma attack and my heads between my knees maybe I'll look down and at least think 'damn, cute shoes girl.' Maybe. Again, probably not.

So here's to weighing something like 140 lbs. And here's to hoping that I can get back down to 130. I know, I've said this before. In fact I am so good at saying it my golden statue award is in the mail. Go team Rachael. No really get your fat ass up and move.


Mandi @ make it dear said...

whoa really?? I eat raisin bran a LOT. I don't like those deceptive foods that you think are good for you!!

Mary Kate said...

You should buy some cute workout clothes too. I don't know why but they make you feel more motivated to keep going. I can remember the last time I ran more than a block. I should get into it too. Summer is a comin. Good luck assistant!

Katie said...

i looove cinnabon!

Jami Nato said...

come to the dark side and become a hippie...eat organic instead of looking at calories and what not. ingredients matter, sister friend.

Meri said...

Half the time I feel like fat is just a feeling. I'm kind of a fat kid in a skinny person's body, it's all relative. Totally a sugar-holic.
New reader here, nice to "meet" you :)